Hey guys
missed you lot
What'd you all get up to while I was gone?
Yeah, I did a bad one this time
Broke my ankle during a seizure & when I fell my foot got turned around so that the front of my foot was pressed up against the back of my leg. I came concious after the ambulance people arrived & I was looking down at the end of my leg & there was just this stump. It was creepy & scary. I kept asking them where my foot was but they wouldn't tell me, then they turned it back around so it faced the right way. I'm allergic to morphine & the like so they had to do it without painkillers.... yuck.
Then the Doctors set it wrong, plus the tissue where the bone was pressed up against the skin necrotised & it was all a mess in slow motion. I still can't walk properly, or for long
but at least I'm off the crutches now
Seems a bit ironic really. I beat a broken back & learned to walk again... then got done in by a broken ankle!
I tried to finish the year at Uni but I'd missed too much & still wasn't well enough. It was a total disaster. Plus my daughter was the one who found me & while she's wheathered all sorts of injuries over the years with barely a blink, this one just done it in for her
She says she nearly vomited at the sight
And she couldn't cope with living here anymore
She officially moved out two weeks ago, but she had been trying to move out for months before. Unfortunately, because she was only 16 she couldn't get the youth benefit because there was no 'irritrievable family breakdown' (ie we still got on fine) & with this recession that we apparently aren't really having any more it took her this long just to get a checkout job. She had been living almost entirely at her fathers for several months before she left.
She's 17 now, & has a part time job working checkout & a flat with a friend of hers who has a baby & is only asking a very low rent in return for some general babycare assistance. And she is actually happier now in her new home than I have seen her for months
I am very glad.
Miss her though.
She keeps phoning up to tell me about things that she discovered I had taught her when she thought she had tuned me out
and has designated me a stealth-ninja teacher. Sneaking in learning over the years, despite her best efforts to avoid it.
So now it's just me & John & my son who's just turned 12. I suppose I'm empty nesting a bit, it all seems like it happened very fast even though it's actually been months since she first started leaving.
But with just my son here & me not at uni atm I am able to give him a better quality education than I was managing last year, so I suppose it all works out in the end.
Wish I could walk though
Or even stand for more than a short period.
Apparently I qualify for one of those disabled parking spaces now.
& the scary thing is that I'm thinking of applying.
I didn't do that even after I broke my back.
But, while willpower might count with the pain
it still doesn't make my foot move
bummer.
Ah well.
I suppose I had to meet something I couldn't beat somewhere along the line.
pi**ed though
I never do like to lose
stubborn b*tch aye lol.
